A year ago

Having the timehop app is the best when you have a baby / kids. It’s so amazing and wonderful to get little glimpses of how life was this time last year!

This one is from a few days ago. He was just 3 days old, I think, and we were still in the hospital. Tobias photoshopped this tattoo on Theo because of his muscle man pose. So hilarious and handsome!

Fun times

Peekaboo!

A few things have finally been checked off the list.

Trip to Paris, check. (It was awesome!)
KITA-Gutschein, check.
Taxes sent off in the mail, check. (Why haven’t I e-filed yet? I don’t really know!)
Theo’s first birthday “party”, check.

“Party” because it was only just us and his Oma & Opa, but there was cake (which I accidentally made salty…oops!), a birthday crown, and presents. My own parents are throwing Theo another first birthday party in June when we get there. That’s in just a couple of weeks! Crazy!

These last few weeks before I fly out on June 2nd are jam-packed with activities and meet-ups, trying to see people again before I’m gone for two months. When we come back, there’s not much time before Theo starts at KITA, I start back at work (two weeks earlier than planned, but it works out best for everyone that way, ::tear::) and life as we know it changes again. Whew. Change is hard; change is good. I don’t want to go back, nor do I want to have to leave my baby toddler all day. But he will have a blast, I’m sure, and I will get back to earning some money and talking to other adults about topics other than babies. I’m sure it will be fine.

Oh, and a month ago, back when I mentioned that it was time for some sleep training? I ordered a book (The Happy Sleeper), stuck to the plan, and things have improved exponentially. He still wakes up in the middle of the night (and wakes us me up, too), but he usually settles back down before we even have to go in there. The first few nights involved more check-ins, but he quickly figured out the pattern and now we don’t have to check in with him as much. The situation has vastly improved. I hope at some point he won’t cry as much in the middle of the night, causing me to also wake up, but it’s already a big help that he doesn’t need me to fall back asleep again.

I’ve also gone about a week or two now with no night feedings, which happened organically as a result of the sleep training. I still nurse him in the mornings, after naps, and at other various points during the day when he asks for milk, so I’m glad that night weaning hasn’t seemed to affect my supply too much. The body is an amazing thing. I’m not ready to stop yet, so I’m glad this is still working for us.

The only big thing, other than packing, that I want to finish before we fly is a DIY soft book I’m making for Theo. I wanted him to have a new book (and something not too heavy!) for the airplane, so I figured I would make him one. I hope he will like it. I will share that when it’s done!

As my Elternzeit is coming to a close, I keep thinking about how this is it. This is the life. This has been one of the best times of my life, and we’re living it now. I’m trying to keep that in mind, be present, and enjoy it. Besides, I still have two months left, and I’m so grateful for this free time to be able to spend with my family and friends in the States.

Okay, before I ramble on too much, I think I’ll go try to work on that soft book before Theo wakes up again.

Theo’s 1st birthday

Well, folks, here you have it. My little boy is one year old today.

We had an absolutely lovely day with him. Definitely much more enjoyable than last year, spending this day in labor with him. ;) Obviously the end part was good, but getting him out here into the world was quite some work!

He brings such light into our lives and I am so very thankful for the gift that is being his mama. Watching him grow this year has been truly amazing.

We love you, Theo. Happy 1st birthday, little man!

My due date – then & now!

What a difference a year makes!

I seriously can’t believe that just one year ago, it was my due date.

I remember having coffee at Adele & Clodwig with the girls from the birth prep course. None of us had had our babies yet, and we all squeezed ourselves and our big bellies around the table and chatted about all sorts of things, sipping on lattes and scarfing down delicious pie. What we talked about, exactly, I don’t remember. But I do know that it was my due date and I felt SO ready to have the baby. I was nervous he’d make me wait long enough to have to be induced. Thankfully, he only waited two days after the due date. There was a buzzing feeling of excitement – es wird gleich losgehen – a new adventure was just about to begin.

I know every mother ever since the beginning of time has said this, but where has the time gone!? It’s just so surreal to have an almost-one-year-old. Just two more days. I feel such a strange mix of emotions. So much of parenting is bittersweet – I’m so blessed to have had the privilege of watching him grow from a tiny little baby into the still-small-but-much-bigger boy he is now. My goodness, though, my heart aches when I look back at the newborn pictures. How was that already a year ago?