Let me just say this. My year has been
a bit rough. But I would be remiss to say that it hasn’t also been good. It has. And through the storms, I want to remember that – to create my own sunshine. To look back and acknowledge the good in the past few months.
This month’s task for the One Little Word project was to check in with your word. We’ve reached the halfway point and it’s always good when you’re working on such a long-term project to stop in the middle of it, evaluate what is working and what isn’t, and then you are able to see more clearly how to move forward with the rest.
In case you don’t remember, my word is happy.
To begin, I thought it would be good to look back on my thoughts at the start of this project. So I reread this post, the post I wrote on the way back from Bali, the calm before the storm, so to speak. Holy cow. I had no idea then that the next few months would be a whirlwind of emotions, big life changes and loss. The day I wrote that post, I got home and got a positive pregnancy test. Two of them. But…it wasn’t meant to be. Just three weeks later, we lost the baby. An early loss, at 10 weeks, but devastating nonetheless. It’s hard to know how to write about this kind of thing, so I just haven’t until now. I imagine those of you who’ve been through this kind of thing understand what I’m talking about.
Back on the first day of the new year, in that post where I announced my word, these words in particular that I wrote at the end of that post jumped off the screen at me:
Choosing a word like that is obviously a bit intimidating. While I am sure there will be lots of happy moments this year, choosing such a word feels almost like I’m inviting a challenge. That I will really be tested. That there will be some times where it will be extremely difficult to be happy. That’s the way life goes. But I believe there is something to say for choosing happiness and letting that goal shape your thoughts and interactions with people. Recognizing the things I have to be happy about.